Christmas

Merry Christmas, to those that deserve it. 

To the rest of you: I hope you choke on some ginger bread and die. 

Forgotten

No one misses you, unless you're pretty or dead

Faith in humanity

Once again: Fucking 0

Sorry

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Depression

I'm so fucking depressed right now :'(

No woman

"No woman wants an abortion as she wants an ice cream cone or a Porsche. She wants an abortion as animal caught in a trap wants to gnaw off its own leg."
- Frederica Mathewes-Green

For the ones-

Take this kiss upon your hand,
For the ones who starved themselves,
Because "ugly" was written all over their mirrors,
Because "fat" was the only thing in their way.

Take this hug around your shoulders,
For the ones who cried themselves to sleep,
Because, unlike everyone else,
Their pillows kept their secrets.

Take this wish for your success,
For the ones with wounds blanketing their wrists,
Because physical pain gave feeling,
And feeling was so hard to find.

Take this whisper in your ear,
For the ones who live through pain,
Through sorrow, through regret, 
Through loneliness in crowded rooms, 
Through nightmares and judgement and hatred...

Take these words, darling,
These words I say to you.

Stay strong. Never give up. Keep breathing.
Continue inspiring.

Let's keep going,
For the ones who starved themselves,
For the ones who cried themselves to sleep,
For the ones with wounds blanketing their wrists,
For the ones who live through pain,
For the ones forced to survive...

And for the ones who never did.

Unwanted

“The worst feeling is feeling unwanted by the person you want the most.”

Silent

When I needed you the most, you took his side and defended his actions after beating me senseless. 

When I asked you if I could join the party due Saturday, you said you weren't going - you felt sick. 2 hours later a photo of you were shown on HIS profile - at the party. 

When I pleaded for your help, crying on my fucking knees, you turned around and left with him. 

This is a guy that have done nothing but hurting me for the passed 2 years, and why?
Because I refused to sleep with him. 

HOW can you, as my only friend, DEFEND THAT!? :'(

And now - I am the bad guy?

I miss you so bad, it hurts to see you with the others and knowing how much you hate me...

I hate it - I just want my friend back </3 

Looks

I think it's interesting that other people judge you before they've even spoken a word to you.
I've been called a slut for 5 years - I'm a virgin.
I've been called fat for my entire life - I've always had issues keeping my waist thin.
I've always been told that I look like a man - I've got my dad's expression and looks, I cannot help that.
I've been picked on for having short nails - Sorry, but I have better stuff to do than spending 2 hours a day fixing my nails. I work 24/7 and cannot work with 1" nails in the workshop.
I've been called shorty and fatty my entire life - Sorry that I have my mother's body.
HOW DARE YOU CALL ME SUCH SHIT!?

To you - This may seem ugly.
But I love my body - JUST THE WAY IT IS.

Being a virgin doesn't bother me, I'm waiting for my prince.
Being fat - I'm building muscles and I have a fair amount underneath that stubborn bellyfat. Wanna bet?
Being a man? Sorry sweetie, I have wide shoulders, wide chest and wide hips. But have you tried actually WORKING? I don't wanna snap in half. And I like my face, thank you.
Having short nails - Again, have you tried to lift a ball of hay in 1" nails? Have you tried driving a motorcycle and wearing armored gloves with 1" nails? Didn't think so.

F*cking stop complaining about others and try to see things positive.
You don't have to tear others down to be happy with yourself.

It isn't fair!

It isn't fair
It isn't fair
It isn't fair
It isn't fair
It isn't fair!
:'(

Blood

It hurts when the blood pours down my open wounds.
But even that hurts less than knowing that I'm all alone.

Feelings

I'm not sure what's worst;
Keeping your mouth shut and your feelings locked up tight...
Or opening your heart, telling how your feel and get ignored :(

Comitted

I won’t cheat on you.


I won’t do you wrong.


I won’t want to stop talking to you.


I wont want to leave you for anyone else.


I won’t do anything to hurt you.


I chose you & that means I only want you, no one else

Fuck

I hate you

I miss you

I need you :'(

Tuesday

Fuck this day

Monday Workday

Something positive - There are still are people who wants me around.

Weekend is over

Hurr-fucking-yay, weekend is over.
Back to anguish-school tomorrow...

Weekend

Another weekend starts by spending it alone

Passing by

I hate when someone you considered your best friend walks pass you without a word...

Replacement

I'm not sure what's worse. 

Your friends abandoning you, or seeing them with someone that have replaced you...

Gone

Where are you? :(

Orkar snart inte mer

Jag e så trött på att behöva gå runt och konstant vara ledsen.
Det enda jag vill göra är att stanna hemma och gråta dagarna i ända.
Jag orkar inte.
Hade det inte varit för djuren hade jag gett upp för länge sedan...

Lonliness

"I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don't know why, some people fill the gaps but other people emphasize my lonliness."

Headache

Jag orkar inte med den här förbannade huvudvärken.

Timme efter timme... 

Vet inte om det är på grund av att jag gråtit varje natt i 4 veckor, eller om det beror på att jag snart slutat äta...

Worst feelings in the world

- Failing a test you studied really hard for

- Getting replaced in a friendship

- Getting ignored 

- Having something that you’re looking forward to, get cancelled

- Having to fight back tears in front of people

- Finding out that the person you like, likes someone else

- Goodbyes

Skitdag

Den här dagen har ju sugit mer än vad jag hoppades på...
Hoppas allt blir bättre imorgon, jag orkar inte med hur mycket skit som helst.

Abandoned

Dat feeling

I absolutely hate that feeling when you hear something you don’t wanna hear or see something you don’t wanna see and your heart literally just sinks to your stomach.

Speak up

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Ensamhet

Jag tror inte människor verkligen förstår hur mycket småsaker sårar.
När allt bara byggs på till en enda stor klump i halsen så brister man tillslut.
1. Saker som att andra pratar med mina vänner, men inte till mig.
2. Att någon frågar om vilka som vill komma till festen i helgen när jag aldrig är välkommen.
3. När det går jävligt bra att skriva över skype/facebook men att prata ansikte mot ansikte är livsfarligt.
4. Att någon skämtar om saker jag är osäker om, och gapskrattar om det.
5. När en person som jag aldrig gjort annat än att hjälpa, sprider rykten & falska påståenden och sedan kan personen i fråga inte ens stå upp för sina ord.


Människor är dem fegaste varelserna jag någonsin stött på. I många fall också de mest patetiska.

Silent suffering

People will never understand how fragile I am.
If somebody decides to get to know me and will talk to me every day I become so attached to them so if they stop talking to me I assume I’m boring or they dislike me so I never start another conversation.

I guess that’s why I have no close friends anymore.

Jävla lögnespridare

Jag trodde att jag var omgiven av personer man kunde lita på. 

Jag trodde att jag äntligen hamnat rätt. 
Jag trodde jag kunde säga vad jag tyckte utan att någon annan skulle förvränga det för att få någon slags njutning i sitt patetiska liv. 

Jag hade ingenting emot den människan innan, men just nu har hon förlorat MIN respekt. 
Var det värt det?
Vad fick du ut av det?

Jag hoppas du e nöjd - du tog den enda vännen jag hade kvar ifrån mig. 

Jag hoppas att någon gör detsamma mot dig en dag, så du får uppleva de känslan av hjälplöshet & den ångesten jag har fått genomgå den senaste tiden - PÅ GRUND AV DIG.